Halloween Confessions
By Nancy Julien Kopp
I have a confession to make. I don’t like Halloween, and I
never have. Even as a kid in the Chicago
suburbs, it was not a big deal for me. It was a day to get through. Oh, I
participated in the school parties, school parade and Trick or Treat time in
the evening, but I never got excited over it like some kids did.
As I got older, I asked myself what was wrong with me. Give
me Valentine’s Day or Thanksgiving or Christmas any day. But Halloween? During
the forties, we didn’t go to Walmart or Target and buy a costume. First of all,
those stores weren’t even born yet. Secondly, my family, like many others,
didn’t spend money on things like costumes. No sireee. We raided our closets at
home and came up with some kind of costume. We had to be creative.
I can’t tell you how many times I was a gypsy because it was
easy to don a full skirt that twirled when I turned round and round, a peasant
style blouse and many ropes of beads from my mother’s jewelry box. Sometimes, I
added a colorful scarf over my hair before going out to Trick or Treat in our
apartment building. We climbed three
flights of stairs in one vestibule after another. The building had 62
apartments, and my brothers and I hit nearly every one. We were getting
beneficial exercise, but no one realized it..
When we got home, we dumped all our loot into a big blue
mixing bowl that Mom had set out for us. No keeping your own candy, for it all
went in together. We were never allowed to stuff ourselves with it either.
Candy in our house was rationed, a little at a time. Mysteriously, the level of
the bowl sank faster than might be expected. I feel pretty sure a couple of
adult hands dipped into the bowl when we were asleep or away at school during
the day.
My brothers rigged up clown outfits or dressed as a bum,
using things from our dad’s closet. Nobody cared if you wore the same costume
year after year because we all did it.
But one year, I wore something totally different. My Aunt
Vivienne had made her daughter a Martha Washington costume, even including a
white cottony wig. The dress was something any girl would have delighted in
wearing. My cousin had outgrown it, so I inherited the special outfit. It was
in my fifth grade year when I slipped into the dress and wig and set off for
school on Halloween morning. I felt pretty nifty. No gypsy girl costume for me
this year. But my happiness turned into
misery faster than you can say ‘black cat’ when the boys howled at my wig and
the girls giggled and pointed. I felt totally humiliated and dreaded walking in
the school Halloween parade. I looked different than anyone else, and I guess
that was the problem. But at such a young age, I had a hard time dealing with
it.
At our school parties, we played the same games year in and
year out. One of them was bobbing for apples. The only thing I hated more than
Halloween itself was that silly game. The teacher produced a big tub of water
and tossed apples into it. They bobbed merrily around. The object was to put
your hands behind your back, lean over and grab an apple with your teeth. My
face got wet, my long hair trailed in the water and I had a hard time grabbing
the apple. I never won and I didn’t care. Even the year I wore the Martha
Washington wig, it came up dripping after my unsuccessful try for the apple.
Slide across the years to the time I had small children who
needed costumes, marched in school parades and went Trick or Treating. I
dreaded the end of October and getting them ready for Halloween. By then, we
bought cheap costumes at the store. No more gypsy girl outfits made up at home
or bum clothes put together from Daddy’s stuff. Some mothers were creative and
made costumes from boxes and other things. Very clever ideas, but I must admit
that I didn’t even attempt to come up with anything like that.
Halloween was still a day to get through. And now, when it’s
my grandchildren who are dressing up and Trick or Treating, I can enjoy seeing
the pictures of them in their costumes. I don’t have to participate because
they live in other towns. We don’t decorate the outside of our house for
Halloween as so many do now, but I do answer the door many times during the
evening of the 31st of October as does my husband. He is always
hopeful we have some candy left over, and we usually do. It’s kind of fun to
see the neighbor kids all dressed up, but somehow I’m relieved when it’s time
to turn off the porch light and I know there are 365 days until Halloween comes
again.
Last year, my daughter told me she really didn’t like
Halloween and dreaded having to get her kids costumes and all the rest that
goes with it. She said, “I didn’t really like it when I was a kid.” Do you
suppose it’s genetic?