The 4th of July, 2019
We celebrate our nation's birthday today. It's done in various ways in different places in our country, but the idea is the same. We mark this day as a celebration of the free land we are privileged to live in. Perfect? No. But in the overall scheme of things, we are very fortunate people.
Today, try the I remember... exercise. Close your eyes and think, or say aloud, I remember... As soon as something comes to mind, start writing. Let yourself go, no holding back on this one.
A part of my own I remember...exercise says exactly what I feel about memories. I wrote:
Memories feed an old soul. Memories entertain the younger generations. Memories are treasures.
Try this exercise and see what memories emerge from the recesses of your mind. My own result is below. When I concentrated on I remember, the first word that came to me was childhood.
I remember so
much about my childhood days. Incidents, events, people, and places return to
me over and over, sometimes in my dreams. I so often am the age I am now, but
the dream is set in someplace of long ago—a place where I might have been as a
child. My childhood home figures prominently in my dreams and memories.
I grew up in a
3rd-floor apartment. Six of us crowded into a 2 bedroom apartment which also
had a small kitchen, pantry, dining room (which is where I slept) and a living
room with a small sunroom extension on it and one bathroom with a clawfoot tub,
no shower. We also had an outdoor balcony, very small and scary when you leaned
over the railing and looked way down below. We never had a chair or table on
the balcony like people would today. It was a place we were seldom allowed to
go, reserved for those Kodak moments.
We climbed the
three flights of stairs to our door carrying so many things--laundry baskets,
grocery bags, the live Christmas tree we had each December. Whatever we needed
or wanted was toted up those three flights. The enclosed front stairs were
carpeted, and as we climbed, we could smell dinner. Sometimes it was dinner
cooking and sometimes it was a lingering odor from yesterday's dinner. We had
to pass four other apartment doors to reach our floor, and the dinner smells
from all four mingled. I often tried to single out the aromas to see who had
eaten what that day. The back steps were outdoors and wooden. Up a big double
set to the first floor, then split off to a single width set on either side,
then onto another double set, and another single width set on either side
leading to our floor. One more double set of steps and we landed on our back porch.
There were four apartment doors on that big porch. And above the railing on our
side ran a clothesline on a pulley. My mother often did hand-washing and hung
the clothes to dry on that line. When there was an infant in the family,
diapers fluttered in the wind every day of the week, drying quickly on summer
days, and freezing to a cardboard stiffness in the winter.
I never knew
what it was to be alone during my growing-up years. With three younger brothers
and living in a small apartment, privacy came down to my allotted ten minutes
in the bathroom each morning. The only place I can remember having solitude is
when I walked to the library, which was at least once every week. Down the
three flights of stairs with a load of books in my arms and away I went, past
the conservatory in the next block, past the city park, and across the double
set of railroad tracks. One was for freight trains, the other for Chicago
Transit Authority "els" Once over the tracks, I turned onto a cinder
path that ran behind the train station platform. I loved that cinder path. It
made me feel as though I’d entered another world. The feel of concrete under my
feet was the norm, but crunching along the cinder path brought me to another
realm. The back of the train platform was to one side of me and a field of tall
weeds bordered the other side of the path. Today, I would probably think it was
no place for a child to be walking alone, but I did it myriad times over those
years and never had a mishap. Maybe an angel walked with me.
The cinder path
ended all too soon to suit me, and I skipped along the remaining block and a
half until I reached my home away from home--the public library. While I made
the walk to and from the library, my thoughts ran to so many things. I had time
to think, to plan, to dream. I cherished that private time as much as the
wonderful books I carried with me.
I remember so
many good things my mother cooked and baked for us. Food was something to be
enjoyed in our home, not just to eat to stay alive. Money was scarce, and
Mother skimped on many things, but food was of primary importance, and we
ate quite well. Steak appeared on our table only occasionally. And we knew if we had steak one night, the
next night was something like tuna casserole, or a pound of hamburger stretched
in any way possible, and some never even thought of before. My mother baked a
lot, and she passed the love of baking on to me. She had learned from her own
mother who had a neighborhood bakery for many years.
Memories feed
an old soul. Memories entertain the younger generations. Memories are treasures.
Yes, I remember
so many things from those childhood years on Garfield Street in Oak Park , Illinois .
They helped make me the person I am today, and they've made me appreciate all
that I have as an adult, not least of all, the joy of having occasional private
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